coming sOOn...

woot woot... exams in 2 days time..
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the mom just gave a comment a.k.a nag>>>>

~i ain't studying!!!?
yes..yes i know that..i know that if i failed i have to bear the consequences myself....!
i have to pay them back myself...with my own money...blah blah blah...
i aint appreciating wat i got...ppl paying for yer..so should put more effort in it..yeah yeah...
im not doing hard enuf..just sitting here in front of the computer...watching manga...yeah ...i know...
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pleeezzzz..
give me a break!!!???

*i sound so childish writing all these stuff ...but i cant help it..
im already a young adult...yet she just starts with all these things...
have i ever disappoint in my studies..NEVER!!! thats all....
if i ever fail....its truly my fault ..i fully comprehend the results of my laziness...

but the thing is...

im not like that...wen i actually pick up my books and study..she isnt here to see it..
hey..i studied like 6 hours in college!!!and i truly mean 6 hours..no less...at home im trying to relax..if i kept on studying..it'll be no different than wen i was in form 5....

form 5 was like...a whole year of only books books and more books..
still remember...wen i stopped studying for a while..pick up an anime and started watching..her grumbles will start..man.... she's reali good in it...all the soft spots she'll hit .. bulls eye....

im just trying to live my life.tho its not perfectly controlled..i slip off my schedule too often...
still now im able to really live my life ...loneliness is not so apparent now..im getting used to company of ppl...im going out wit frens..without feeling apprehensive..can laugh n joke wit them..so i feel like im breaking out from my shell now..im actually lovin my life..not bored by it...

#advice to ppl..getting to much control sometimes isnt very good..being submissive sometimes reali can backfire...u'll lose urself..thats bad..

_cant help but let these out..sometimes..its bad for my mind...
i b'live there's ppl out there that truly understand wat i'm writing bout..tho im skeptical that anyone is actually reading this blog...hahahahahah